Sunday, November 1, 2009

It's Never Goodbye

Time passes so quickly it seems. It's been two years already. Two years today. How is it possible that mom has been gone that long already? I suppose it doesn't seem possible because the pain is still fresh. The tears still creep up unexpectedly and my heart hurts so much that I can't breathe.

People always tell you that it will get easier. It doesn't get easier. I still miss her. So much. I still catch myself thinking that I've got to call mom to tell her the exciting news....then I realize that I can't. It doesn't get easier. The moments that catch you off guard and break you down may not come as often, but the feeling is just the same when they do come. It doesn't hurt any less. It doesn't make me cry any less. It doesn't make me miss her any less. It doesn't get easier....ever.

This song has always touched my heart. Even now, it reminds me of all the things my mother helped me through, the things that she taught me. I was lucky to have a wonderful relationship with my mom. I know that not everyone has that and it breaks my heart for those that do not.

Although this song speaks of saying goodbye, I don't see it that way. It's never really goodbye, but it's I'll see you again....someday.

Today is a day to remember. One of the many days to remember her. It's a day to smile at the memories and let the tears fall at the loss.

Always in my heart. Always a part of me.

I miss you....

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

"It doesn't get easier....ever." You're right about that. My mother passed away almost 19 years ago (it will be 19 years the 15th of Jan) and it STILL hurts.

~big hugs~